3:40am

Earlier this evening, my brother messaged me on facebook asking how was I blah blah blah... I answered, I was thinking not to but I did so, my answers were like "good" "yes" and all one liners that you could think of lol! I was trying to make him feel I'm not in the mood to talk with him and all. Idk I just don't want to talk to anyone of them. Except for my two younger siblings though lol. Also, there's nothing really to say, and I don't really feel that they care so why bother asking me. To make me think that they care when they really don't? I don't knooowwww. I sound like such a bad sister/daughter to them and my father lol but that's what they think and maybe I really am so whatever. 

I want to move on. But, I don't know how to. If I could just erase those times I wasted with them,I think would. Though I know erasing memories with people that were once part of your life isn't the best way to move on. So, what should I do? Just accept those tragic(lol tragic! Not really tragic but... sorry can't think of any word as of this moment) moments with them, and simply move on? 

Oh well, I'm just making myself stress on things that aren't supposed to be thoughtof.

I'll just be happy. That is all.

Goodnight

to you

3:53AM and still awake. Lol like I'm not used to it! I only had 2 hours of sleep earlier though, well, must be the coffee. "Instant human, just add coffee" I had a shirt that says exactly like that before, not sure where it really came from though.

Anywaaaaay, I'm not going to talk about coffee or my 2 hours of sleep on this post. The title says "to you", soooooo I'm referring to my boyfriend. Haha! Sorry, not you. Hahaha

Like any other normal couples, we have fights. Small and/or big fights. But, at the end of the day, we are still together, we don't easily breakup. Though, of course, there are times that when you're in the middle of the fight and you'd say "lets just breakup blah blah blah". Well, unfortunately for Mr. Johnny Depp, I'd still stay with my boyfriend, Joshua. Haha! Cheesy whuuut

My Dearest Joshua/Jojo/Jojo Tabachoy/Hun/BunBun,

I don't know if you're going to read this, though I'm pretty sure that you won't, but I'm hoping that you would. Lol! I LOVE YOU. I'm sorry for the stupid things I've done, the shitty things I say when I'm angry, when I'm being a brat and for hurting you. I didn't mean it. I was just angry. I don't know how to explain it, really. THANK YOU for believing in me, for giving me things just because I want it even though I don't really need it which is why I'm a brat? Lol! For making me laugh when I'm sad, for understanding me almost all the time(ALMOST because NOT all the time you understand me! Meh! What's up with that hahaha), for going with me everywhere :-), and of course, for being with me when everyone else left... and for loving me! ;-) I LOVE YOU. Forever&ever. I know we're not a perfect couple, we're not trying to be one, and I don't want to be one. I think we're just a couple having fun, living the life how we want it to be, journeying life... or whatever. Lulz!

Anyway, I don't know why I'm writing this. Hahaha! I just really can't sleep. Hahahahaha! I love you. I know you know how much I love you.

Just like what I said earlier, 

"Hindi ka na masasaktan"

"...kasi andito na si Super Coi" Hahahahahahaha

Mahal kita.